Melius Senyan (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
fusrodaaaah) wrote2020-11-08 08:41 pm
fusrodaaaah) wrote2020-11-08 08:41 pm
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IC INBOX | Deer Country
TEXT | VOICEMAIL | LETTER
TEXT | VOICEMAIL | LETTER
TEXT | VOICEMAIL | LETTER
TEXT | VOICEMAIL | LETTER
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[ ...
A beat, where Chizuru seems to have a realisation, and then she sends: ]
well actually he does kill people
[ She can't lie to a good friend like Melius, right. :( ]
but he does not kill people he feels fondly about
he just threatens to kill them because he does not know how to handle or express his feelings in any other way
you would understand if you met him
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that um
that sounds dangerous
still dangerous
even if he is um your friend
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[ .. Or.. well, she's like 90% sure of that? She guesses you just can't ever fully tell with Okita.. Though she keeps that little bit of information to herself, lest she accidentally freaks her friend out even further. That'd be too much for poor Melius' heart. ]
it is just that it makes being friends with him a lot more
how should i say it
a lot more challenging i suppose
i want to do the right thing for him but it is hard when he does not let me in very much
but i suppose that he is not the only person who is like that
[ Even if he does put a very, very unique murderous spin on it, huh. ]
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maybe you could
pretend it was you
who needed the potions, or cures
that way
that way no one had to know it was him?
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[ .. pause.
Not a super long pause, but definitely long enough that Chizuru could have considered and then realised something.. ]
do you know how to fake having tuberculosis
[ Very important questions. ]
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what
is that
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do they not have that where you come from
???
do they not have it here
sometimes it's also called consumption if you have heard of that instead
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yes
that
I know that
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then how do you think i could fake having that
so i could pretend it is for my sake and not his
[ Apparently it took just.. nothing for Chizuru to just be willing to do that for someone she cares about.. Casually faking a fatal illness, no biggie. ]
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and not breathe very well
sometimes you cough blood
and are very pale
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but it would be a little hard to fake that right
i mean the coughing part is easy
but i do not know how i could suddenly cough blood
unless i would injure myself
[ And that just doesn't seem like a good idea to Chizuru.
She at least has some common sense. ]
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they um
you can make thick juice with them and they're red
like blood
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or um
i suppose i should say if i go home
i am not really sure if that will ever happen
but being prepared to help out a friend the moment i am back cannot hurt i guess
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but i only know snowberries very well anymore
do you
want to go back?
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But Chizuru knows the answer. ]
yes
i have met a whole lot of kind people here
but this place is really scary and awful
and i have something to do back home
i cannot just abandon my duty
so if i could go home i would
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[Oh.]
[The weird stab of guilt is new. Guilt over what he wants. What he knows he'd try to choose, given the chance.]
i understand
im sorry you arent there
but also glad you are here
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?
[ The rest of it she can understand, but this part.. ]
why
?
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right?
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[ At least there's no hesitance in answering that. The concept of friendship may have been relatively new to Chizuru here, but she's fully embraced the fact she has friends now. And Melius is definitely one of them. ]
i just
i am sorry maybe this sounds odd
but i just did not imagine you were actually glad i am here
[ Look, people appreciating her presence is.. a new concept for Chizuru too, okay...
She's trying to learn to get used to it.. ]
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huh ?
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[Okay, more seriously. If Chizuru can't understand why people would appreciate her, Melius... can't really understand that. She's done a lot. She's been a good friend. An actual friend, and not just one who he'd done a favor for, or had been assigned to him by some jarl. (Those poor warriors wasting away in their homes because the Argonian couldn't conceive of asking someone else to get hurt with him).]
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[ ...
Give her a second. This is hard to put into exact words even for her, but she's trying.. ]
i enjoy spending time with you
and talking to you
but i did not want to presume that you necessarily feel the same way
that would not be very nice of me
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oh but um
if I didn't want to
I would hide ?? and not
talk to you?
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you would
hide
?????
[ Clearly this is more important than anything else in this moment. Because that feels a little extreme, even by Melius standards. ]
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yes
I do that sometimes
when there are rude customers
then Sasuke or Aakhahnu talks to them
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Well, it's not like she can't imagine it.. ]
i see
in that case
thank you for your kind feelings towards me
i feel very grateful that you look upon me so kindly
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